Hey all!! I just wanted everybody to look at my beautiful little baby. There's a picture that's my absolute favorite!! I've been depressed and not wanting to write b/c I am super-overweight. I didn't realize that I was retaining ALL of my baby weight until my 4 week check-up where I discovered I had GAINED 2 lbs. I knew SOMETHING was wrong! I talked to my doctor and found that a medication that I was on since the beginning of my pregnancy made me gain all kinds of weight while I was pregnant, and then retain it ALL after she was born. Would've been nice to know! So, with this new information, I stopped that medication. I decided that I was going crazy being a fat*ss! So, I talked to my doctor and told him I was willing to stop breastfeeding so that he could put me on the medication that we had discussed in order to lose the weight. So, now, I'm on medication for OBESITY!! Good night!! I am so glad to be on the medication, but I miss breastfeeding so very much. This was the first time I really WANTED to breastfeed. I think I've lost 10 lbs in a week, I hope it keeps working.
On another note: Esther Elizabeth has RSV. It sucks so bad! She is so sick, and congested. It's so sad, she's constantly coughing, and gagging from the phlegm. Please pray that she whips this and stays out of the hospital! And pray for strength for me b/c w/ her being sick it's "hold me, feed me, hold me, feed me......". It's hard to watch her be sick too.
On a good note: I just cut my own hair and I think it's the best haircut I've ever had! I'm getting it highlighted on Thursday, so I will try and fix it and take some pictures and post them.
I am flying home next month and am totally excited about it!! I am scared to death (no kidding - it's a phobia) to fly, but it will be worth it. I can't wait to see my family and my son! It's been over a year, and I am just about to die!! And, of course, my friends, including my best friend in the whole world! I've gotta go - Esther's puking....

This will be my last entry before baby Esther comes!! I'm 39 weeks, and going in tomorrow morning at 7 am to be induced! Finally! I'm going to try and get some video and photos on ASAP afterward. If you read this in time, please pray for a smooth labor and delivery. Thanks for reading! Bye for now! OH! And I posted about 9 more pictures, so check them out! I was really proud of how long my nails are and the french manicure I gave to myself (very, very challenging to do on yourself). It's almost baby time!

  My husband passed his State Board Exam!!! This is such an answer to prayer! Thank you to those of you that I asked to pray! What a miracle! We needed this so bad. What this means now is: he applies for his actual license, receives it in 4-6 weeks, he gets promoted, and we get a RAISE!! Praise God! We've been waiting for this day! Funny story to that....we almost DID wait (to get married) until he passed so that we would be financially okay. BUT, as many of you know, that's not how we did it. Good thing too. Neither of us thought that it could take this long. In less than a month, we will be celebrating our 1 year anniversary (yes, I WILL be 38 weeks pregnant on our anniversary). And in about a month (or less, God-willing) we will have our little girl, Esther Elizabeth. In a way, I feel like I have been married forever. It's funny. I feel like we've known each other for years, and have been married for many wonderful years. BUT, again, as many of you know - this is not the case. Anyway, I am so excited! Now we can get my son out here to visit! And we are looking at a new-to-us vehicle. His mom is getting her inheritance money (from her mother's house [she passed away this year]) next week, and wants to buy us a vehicle. I'm really liking this 98 Dodge Durango (white w/ tan leather interior). If we get it, I will write about that too. We are blessed. So, thank you God. Thank you so much.
  Oh, and my sugar levels (when I refrain from sweets [that includes drinks]) are doing good, so I only have to prick myself 2 times a day now. Yea! That's so much better than 4. AND!!!!! I HEAR MY BROTHER IS COMING HOME SOON! I am so happy for him and Amy (and Elijah). Lots of answered prayer! And I'm 34 weeks preggo! Moving right along!